The Devil's Spawn (Devil's Kiss Book 4) by Gemma James

Author:Gemma James [James, Gemma]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2016-12-26T18:30:00+00:00

16. Heartbeat

The following morning, Gage got me in to see the best obstetrician that money could buy. We sat side-by-side in the waiting room, hands clasped together. He seemed as nervous as I was. The wait to see the doctor wasn’t long, but it seemed to span forever. By the time they called me back, I was sure my blood pressure would rocket through the roof. After the nurse took my vitals and asked a dozen or so questions, she left Gage and me alone with the assurance the doctor would be in shortly.

I hopped onto the table, my ass sliding over the paper, and eyed Gage. He’d unfolded into a chair near the door of the exam room. Between the glaring lights overhead and my lack of sleep the previous night, this whole situation seemed…surreal.

What bothered me most was all the things we hadn’t said. After I’d finally gotten the words out about the pregnancy, Gage had flipped through a plethora of reactions, from shocked to elated to disbelieving to…worried.

And that last one set me on edge the most, possibly because it reflected my own fears. Everything was changing so quickly—within my body and in my marriage. I needed his rock solid presence right now. Hell, I even needed his stringent disciplinary measures. They kept me grounded, and I needed that more than ever.

I’d grown accustomed to bowing to his decisions, to depending on him to keep me in line. But a pregnancy…maybe we’d both underestimated the realities that would come with such a life-changing event.

Deep down, I hadn’t worried about it much because after those first few months, when it became obvious I wasn’t getting pregnant, I hadn’t thought it would be an issue we’d have to face.

Turned out I was wrong.

I glanced up and found him staring at me. “What do you need from me, Kayla?”

That was the last thing I’d expected him to say. “I…I’m not sure what you mean.”

“You tried talking to me last night about what you’d need, should you become pregnant. I could have handled that conversation a lot better. Instead, I jumped to conclusions, and for that I’m truly sorry. So now I’m asking. Tell me what you need.”

I parted my lips, but nothing came out. The best I could do was shrug my shoulders. Problem was, I had no idea what I wanted or needed. My head was still spinning from seeing those two lines yesterday, and the fact that Gage was sitting in that chair, looking so damn lost, just about unhinged me.

“I need you to be you,” I whispered, my throat constricting. Why was I so upset? Having a baby was a dream come true for us. But neither of us could deny the risks—not with the type of lifestyle we lived and my previous track record with pregnancies.

He rose and crossed to where I sat, legs dangling over the edge of the table. As I drew in a lungful of air, he slid his palms along my cheeks, and it amazed me how gentle he managed to be at times.

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